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I m feeling so low today...

By nature I am a combo of 98% honesty & 2% anger. I am very BLUNT person who firmly believes in speaking my heart out.

One of BIG reasons behind this is the struggle, I did in my initial years. I am sad because I have started feeling the impact of my behavior. When you are young, you're parents act as a protection wall & others dismiss your act by calling you an immature kid but NOW, things have started bouncing back. My behavior has started creating constant ripples in my mind.

Relationship, a highly complicated gift from God. Unfortunately, I have failed to understand these clearly. I am lost & have started loosing myself to it.

I love all the humans created by God, I don't hate anyone (though there are many, I dislike but don't hate them), I want to be good to everyone & expect the same BUT that doesn't happen EVER!!!

Why does this happen? Why people react to my behavior?I know they think that I am dominating & fake which I am not.

I always get negativity in return of my deeds, which blows me out completely & my mind keeps thinking about the activities done to me, who said what & all ??

What should i do? I am constantly searching for an answer to this. I am so much exhausted that I can't think any more. Should I refer to a Psychic Dr.? Should I speak things out to them? Pleaseeee help me as can't think any more....God give me some peace & patience. Give me power to trust you deeply & seek comfort from you.