Thanks Jennster & Izzymom for posting comments on my blog.
It's nice to know that there's an audience on the other side of the world to share my feelings in strange way.
Recent update: I am feeling better..infact a lott better now..may be the credit goes to the weekend :)
I have created a wish list, which I want to achieve in due course of time:
1. Get a permanent hair straintening
2. Get a nice nail paint
3. Get a big bag for myself
4. Get some nice wardobe...
awww...so many
when will the good times start..
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Saturday, September 5, 2009
Dimnishing peace of mind
I don't know why but my heart seems to be in pain & skiping its rythem of life.
I guess this is what happens to most of us..in some phase of our lives.
My heart is seeking for peace, a place where I can talk to myself, listen to my conscious & attain mental peace.
It seems I am sick of sticking to my daily BORING life. I need a damm break...I am sick of getting up early morning, packing lunch, office, sales, $$, targets, strategies, team co-ordination, home, dinner...& so on....I want to fly to a place where I can rest for a while, think & plan for future, play with my daughter.
I want to register to Anger Management classes, want to meditate & may be stick to an exercise regime.
I realize my anger is the reason behind my current situation but what should I do?
Should i take any shit from people around me? Should i give up on a situation..I choose to fight..coz I am a fighter. I am a strong women & a women of principles..I am born leader not a follower..I just CAN'T bear shit from anyone.
Why does life lead me to such crossroads, every now & then. I at times feel that i should give up all the relationships & should elope to a quite place but these relationships & emotional strings are not letting me do that...the thought of who will take care of my daughter or who will understand my mother, gives me a cold feeling.
I am loosing myself..,I am tried, I am sinking...I am not what I want to be...this world is cruel & may be I have not learned the survival skills..I am HURT..!!!
I guess this is what happens to most of us..in some phase of our lives.
My heart is seeking for peace, a place where I can talk to myself, listen to my conscious & attain mental peace.
It seems I am sick of sticking to my daily BORING life. I need a damm break...I am sick of getting up early morning, packing lunch, office, sales, $$, targets, strategies, team co-ordination, home, dinner...& so on....I want to fly to a place where I can rest for a while, think & plan for future, play with my daughter.
I want to register to Anger Management classes, want to meditate & may be stick to an exercise regime.
I realize my anger is the reason behind my current situation but what should I do?
Should i take any shit from people around me? Should i give up on a situation..I choose to fight..coz I am a fighter. I am a strong women & a women of principles..I am born leader not a follower..I just CAN'T bear shit from anyone.
Why does life lead me to such crossroads, every now & then. I at times feel that i should give up all the relationships & should elope to a quite place but these relationships & emotional strings are not letting me do that...the thought of who will take care of my daughter or who will understand my mother, gives me a cold feeling.
I am loosing myself..,I am tried, I am sinking...I am not what I want to be...this world is cruel & may be I have not learned the survival skills..I am HURT..!!!
Thursday, September 3, 2009
My favorite blogs
I love going through blogs on House keeping, women power, real life instances, kids, parenting & so on..
I follow couple of blogs almost every day as they take me to a different world & fill my mind with ideas & creativity.
One of them, that tops the list is http://megduerksen.typepad.com/whatever/. I look forward to her blogs & feel so close to her through her blog.
There's so much of life in her blog. So many colors & kids.
I simply admire her blog & wish I could have a blog like hers.
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