With all the festivities around, it's so difficult to focus on work & think straight..Gooshhh!!!
I wonder if there are many who think on similar lines with me or AM I the only one..!!!
I am so darn excited, want to explore all the Durga puja pandals in the city, want to watch another movie, want to indulge in sweets, sugar & calories..loll
It's a less hectic here & I am again & again reminding myself that it is NOT Friday..
What are you doing this Friday? any plans to share?
Thursday, October 14, 2010
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Dreams & Desires..
After a good counselling session from my dear bothers & mom, I was finally able to get myself in order after 2 stressful days.
Anyways, while I was forcing myself to stay calm & happy, I was thinking about the beauty of god & was planning menus on the festive day ahead [after all, food is the key to make me happy!!!]
In middle of all this, a thought passed my mind & it was "When will I get an opportunity to unwind myself in Bali & then travel to Italy to feed my love of food ". I know you might relate it to EAT, Pray & Love. Well, that's the origin of the idea.
And on 2nd thought, I was questioning myself that when do I want to go? Have I saved enough? Do I want to spend my old age like our monthers / mom-in -laws, sulking each day about food, menus, festivals, maids & etc, etc
My mind instantly switched to planning phase & I made a commitment to myself. I will surely travel. Yes, I will along with my loving husband after 27 years from now.
Are you laughing at me?? well, 27 years because Samaera will be old enough to take care of herself & surely by grace of God, she will have her own life.
So, after27 years, My Hubby & I will start a new journey of joy & love.
I really need to start saving for it now..I should, in order to pursue my dreams & our happiness together.
Have you ever thought about it? Do you have a desire or dream for which you should start saving or planning? If yes, then, please share.
Love,
Mansi
Anyways, while I was forcing myself to stay calm & happy, I was thinking about the beauty of god & was planning menus on the festive day ahead [after all, food is the key to make me happy!!!]
In middle of all this, a thought passed my mind & it was "When will I get an opportunity to unwind myself in Bali & then travel to Italy to feed my love of food ". I know you might relate it to EAT, Pray & Love. Well, that's the origin of the idea.
And on 2nd thought, I was questioning myself that when do I want to go? Have I saved enough? Do I want to spend my old age like our monthers / mom-in -laws, sulking each day about food, menus, festivals, maids & etc, etc
My mind instantly switched to planning phase & I made a commitment to myself. I will surely travel. Yes, I will along with my loving husband after 27 years from now.
Are you laughing at me?? well, 27 years because Samaera will be old enough to take care of herself & surely by grace of God, she will have her own life.
So, after27 years, My Hubby & I will start a new journey of joy & love.
I really need to start saving for it now..I should, in order to pursue my dreams & our happiness together.
Have you ever thought about it? Do you have a desire or dream for which you should start saving or planning? If yes, then, please share.
Love,
Mansi
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Not so good
It has been long.. approx a year since I am running away from my actual feelings.
Life is surely not so nice always.
I am feeling so empty, so sad..the people I loved & adored turned out be total stinkers.
They followed me professionally, caught me in wrong relationships, made fool of me & my emotions & eventually they moved on & act as if nothing happened.
GOSH, I can never be like them. I can't act normal like nothing happened.
Today I feel I have taken enough of shit from my friends & to be honest, I am in dilemma to call them as friends or not.
Not only this, I am confused about how to stop things, how to make myself disappear & ignore their cruel behavior.
I took a decision a while back & today I feel I was right. There was no REAL friendship that could have supported the whole structure.
Either people were diplomatic or they were too smart.
This is not the end of story, there are other set of "so called" friends who never pick up the phone, never bother to keep in touch & if by mistake they entertain your call, they would be so damm artificial.
O God, please give me a break from the people. I no longer desire to stay connected with them & take their shit. I just want to move on. I am stuck with these emotions that are no longer letting me feel free.
I want to resume my normal life & enjoy time with my loving family. I don't want friends as none of these exists & if they do, I guess I am not lucky with them.
Life is surely not so nice always.
I am feeling so empty, so sad..the people I loved & adored turned out be total stinkers.
They followed me professionally, caught me in wrong relationships, made fool of me & my emotions & eventually they moved on & act as if nothing happened.
GOSH, I can never be like them. I can't act normal like nothing happened.
Today I feel I have taken enough of shit from my friends & to be honest, I am in dilemma to call them as friends or not.
Not only this, I am confused about how to stop things, how to make myself disappear & ignore their cruel behavior.
I took a decision a while back & today I feel I was right. There was no REAL friendship that could have supported the whole structure.
Either people were diplomatic or they were too smart.
This is not the end of story, there are other set of "so called" friends who never pick up the phone, never bother to keep in touch & if by mistake they entertain your call, they would be so damm artificial.
O God, please give me a break from the people. I no longer desire to stay connected with them & take their shit. I just want to move on. I am stuck with these emotions that are no longer letting me feel free.
I want to resume my normal life & enjoy time with my loving family. I don't want friends as none of these exists & if they do, I guess I am not lucky with them.
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