Going Globalll

Thanks Jennster & Izzymom for posting comments on my blog.

It's nice to know that there's an audience on the other side of the world to share my feelings in strange way.

Recent update: I am feeling better..infact a lott better now..may be the credit goes to the weekend :)

I have created a wish list, which I want to achieve in due course of time:

1. Get a permanent hair straintening
2. Get a nice nail paint
3. Get a big bag for myself
4. Get some nice wardobe...

awww...so many

when will the good times start..

Dimnishing peace of mind

I don't know why but my heart seems to be in pain & skiping its rythem of life.
I guess this is what happens to most of us..in some phase of our lives.

My heart is seeking for peace, a place where I can talk to myself, listen to my conscious & attain mental peace.
It seems I am sick of sticking to my daily BORING life. I need a damm break...I am sick of getting up early morning, packing lunch, office, sales, $$, targets, strategies, team co-ordination, home, dinner...& so on....I want to fly to a place where I can rest for a while, think & plan for future, play with my daughter.

I want to register to Anger Management classes, want to meditate & may be stick to an exercise regime.
I realize my anger is the reason behind my current situation but what should I do?
Should i take any shit from people around me? Should i give up on a situation..I choose to fight..coz I am a fighter. I am a strong women & a women of principles..I am born leader not a follower..I just CAN'T bear shit from anyone.

Why does life lead me to such crossroads, every now & then. I at times feel that i should give up all the relationships & should elope to a quite place but these relationships & emotional strings are not letting me do that...the thought of who will take care of my daughter or who will understand my mother, gives me a cold feeling.

I am loosing myself..,I am tried, I am sinking...I am not what I want to be...this world is cruel & may be I have not learned the survival skills..I am HURT..!!!

My favorite blogs

I love going through blogs on House keeping, women power, real life instances, kids, parenting & so on..

I follow couple of blogs almost every day as they take me to a different world & fill my mind with ideas & creativity.

One of them, that tops the list is http://megduerksen.typepad.com/whatever/. I look forward to her blogs & feel so close to her through her blog. 

There's so much of life in her blog. So many colors & kids.

I simply admire her blog & wish I could have a blog like hers.

Friendship....

Have you experienced a phase, where you want to avoid all your school friends & later in life, you think about them & miss them ?

I am experianced this feeling. Its a mixed expression with a weird & funny feeling as you don't really know on how to start mending things & how to act NORMAL after soo many years.

I think as & when time passes, things go better. We can only pray for things to be easy & comforting.

Now, if you have not contacted your ex-friends, its time to contact them NOW...All the best

Irony

Hello....

IT is ruling over lives in almost all the aspects. Most of my friends are working in well estabished firms but are WE really progressing as a country.

The reason behind this thought is based on the experience I had other day while surfing for some relevant info.

India, a country which caters to international markets for SEO, website design & development.

We help others to boost their sites where on the other side, we desperately lack some GOOD & RELEVANT SITES

Way to go...India!!!

Distance

I m feeling so low today...

By nature I am a combo of 98% honesty & 2% anger. I am very BLUNT person who firmly believes in speaking my heart out.

One of BIG reasons behind this is the struggle, I did in my initial years. I am sad because I have started feeling the impact of my behavior. When you are young, you're parents act as a protection wall & others dismiss your act by calling you an immature kid but NOW, things have started bouncing back. My behavior has started creating constant ripples in my mind.

Relationship, a highly complicated gift from God. Unfortunately, I have failed to understand these clearly. I am lost & have started loosing myself to it.

I love all the humans created by God, I don't hate anyone (though there are many, I dislike but don't hate them), I want to be good to everyone & expect the same BUT that doesn't happen EVER!!!

Why does this happen? Why people react to my behavior?I know they think that I am dominating & fake which I am not.

I always get negativity in return of my deeds, which blows me out completely & my mind keeps thinking about the activities done to me, who said what & all ??

What should i do? I am constantly searching for an answer to this. I am so much exhausted that I can't think any more. Should I refer to a Psychic Dr.? Should I speak things out to them? Pleaseeee help me as can't think any more....God give me some peace & patience. Give me power to trust you deeply & seek comfort from you.

An intro to my world...my princess:)

I knw I must have said this million of times before but i feel like saying it all the time that I love you baby. I love her so much. I knw..its funny as all the mom's in the world love their kids.

Let me share my bundle of joy with you all through her pics